Day 4 – Write something that you were told about yourself and how it made you feel

I’m not really sure how to start this because it’s going to make me very emotional.

When I was 17, I attempted suicide. I was hurt, depressed and I felt worthless. I honestly thought there was no other way out of the pain I was feeling so I did the only thing that seemed like it would help, and I downed a prescription packet of pills that I was given for depression.

I spent the next hour feeling like absolute hell. I felt the scratching of those pills on my throat as they came up as vomit. I was taken to hospital, put onto a drop and was on suicide watch for the next 8 hours. I was adamant that I wouldn’t do it again, but of course, they had do to do what they had to do.

The next day, I was at home when my brother called around to check on me. I remember him saying ‘you’re stronger than you think Jade.’

That was the ONE thing that has stuck with me since. Every time I feel broken and battered, or I feel like my world is turning upside down (aka right now basically, yay for feelings) I refer back to that moment and remind myself I am stronger than I realise.

If it wasn’t for my brother, I might have not ever believed that I was strong and capable of handling these hard times.

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