I’m not really sure how to start this because it’s going to make me very emotional.
When I was 17, I attempted suicide. I was hurt, depressed and I felt worthless. I honestly thought there was no other way out of the pain I was feeling so I did the only thing that seemed like it would help, and I downed a prescription packet of pills that I was given for depression.
I spent the next hour feeling like absolute hell. I felt the scratching of those pills on my throat as they came up as vomit. I was taken to hospital, put onto a drop and was on suicide watch for the next 8 hours. I was adamant that I wouldn’t do it again, but of course, they had do to do what they had to do.
The next day, I was at home when my brother called around to check on me. I remember him saying ‘you’re stronger than you think Jade.’
That was the ONE thing that has stuck with me since. Every time I feel broken and battered, or I feel like my world is turning upside down (aka right now basically, yay for feelings) I refer back to that moment and remind myself I am stronger than I realise.
If it wasn’t for my brother, I might have not ever believed that I was strong and capable of handling these hard times.